Truth

Well, life is full of surprises. Seems that Rain's psycho ex husband strikes again. She contacted me after No Contact. She tells me that Dick (that's his name) has been posing as me, sending personal and nasty emails to many people involved. Ugh. What a loser. I emailed Shorty's wife (who seems to have been separated from him for awhile), telling her that it was not me and I wish the best for her family. So, Rain wanted to verify it was not me. I was offended she thought I had something to do with this. I denied it and she agreed right away. I am not going to put myself and my own job in jeopardy.

So, we talk. Figured we were on the phone. I asked her, tell me the truth, was Tony Shorty? Her mystery man. She said yes. The truth felt good to hear. So, years ago she was choosing between me and him. I thought so. She says they had an on again, off again relationship for years back then. When she met me, she had to choose. She was comfortable and secure with him, but was in love with me. She chose me. He gave her back a bunch of stuff (that I even saw some of it by accident) and we were together. The frame I found under the bed made its way to the underwear drawer and then to the closet in a box in the last two years. She told me again she never cheated on me. Rain told me that Shorty even offered to cater her wedding to me if we got that far. She said she was not comfortable with that. She was not comfortable with the two of us ever meeting. She said she did not think she could handle it. She said that she did not love him anymore like in the past; only as a friend. I believe her. The truth was coming out of her finally. Maybe it is part of her healing process. She has been a mess lately. Weaning herself off of the medication she was on. She also told me that he had nothing to do with the breakup. She said there was no offer on the table and there was no future with him as far as she knew. I told her it was not my concern. Of course I cared but am not going to show it. She said that being with him after our breakup was comforting and familiar. She said it was a bad judgment call and was not with him currently. I am sure she's not considering his wife found out and is making life hell I'm sure.

She has a lot to take care of. She has this injunction with her ex. She admitted to me that she does need help and once things have settled, she is going to do that. I hope she does. I really do. I have let go much of the anger. She also told me that she still loves me, but believes the decision to break up was the right thing to do. I did not argue the point. She was very emotional during it all. I felt for her. I really did. Still time to move on but I wonder when she will pop back in my life. Part of me hopes she never will. But, part of me misses the old Rain. I guess a part of me hopes to see her one day. Who thought life would be this difficult?