Fallout

She cried. I was shocked. She was hugging me. I suggested maybe we should take a break instead. Give her a month to think about things. Find herself as she put it. I am a no contact type of person. I give her the space she needs. It gave me time to think as well. Was this worth it? Do I want someone who goes through these cycles of questioning their feelings? Not sure what they want in life? Not sure I can ever truly trust her?

Enter, again, her psycho ex husband. He contacts me (and supposedly Shorty's wife according to his emails) with pictures of Rain and her boss together. They went on a weekend together to a very expensive resort. This was no business trip. The one picture was the two of them on a romantic carriage ride, her hand on his thigh, his arm around her. She looked stunning as always, wearing some new necklace he bought her possibly and having fun on his boat. 


Damn. 
Damn her. 
Damn him. 


Damn me for ignoring all the signs. 


So, we are on a break. She is supposed to be using this time to think. Instead she goes off and fucks her boss. And I am sure this did not happen overnight. She probably had sex with him that week according to her ex husband. Late night visits at her house.

How long has this been going on? When she had doubts? Just recently? The whole time? 


I confronted her on the phone at first. She lied. Then lied again. Same old Rain. Finally I told her that she does not have to lie anymore. It was over. I would never take her back after this anyway like the past few times. She admitted it. Partly, not saying much. Then she admitted that this started many years before me. He is always there for her. Awww, how sweet. What a great guy.