2007-2009
I really see our relationship split in two parts. The first part, 2005-07 was hot, passionate, exciting, dangerous, dramatic, unstable, confusing and sometimes hellish. There were issues of trust, possible cheating (that I think now happened), me snooping around from it, jealousy on both our parts, parties, her car accident, surgery and our big break up. I walked away when she broke it off and never bothered her. Not once. She came to me after five weeks. Recently she said it was because she didn't want to be alone. I asked her, that's it? You lied to me? She said, well I loved you too. Wow. Classic personality disorder. I took her back like an idiot. But, after that our relationship seemed renewed. Stronger. More stable. There were no more jealousies. Only a few speed bumps of trust issues spurred by her ex husband mainly.
The part 2 to us was pretty damn good. My favorite of the two parts. More secure. Safer. I felt I could trust her totally the last three years. I don't know if that makes me a fool.
Good times, good times. Her modeling has taken off. My photography getting better all the time. I start doing pin up and art. She as my model, of course. I don't have much desire to work with other models. She has become my ideal. It's become a second honeymoon for us. We spend almost every weekend together. Even when I have my daughter and act more like a casual family than just dating. My daughter looks up to her. She loves her.
Rain and I are unstoppable. Others in the model community love us, calling us the perfect couple. The art just keeps getting better. The sex is damn good. Her injuries slowly begin to get better so long after the accident. Her consumption of pills bothers me and she only went to counseling for a few months. Things were going so well I didn't push it. We put off talks of taking the next step and just focused on fun. I blame myself for that as much as her. Anything serious was disguised as a joke by both of us. I did not realize when she was serious and she probably didn't see me dropping hints. Why mess up a good thing we always said?
Depression reared its ugly head here and there but nothing she couldn't handle, so she said. We were busy, having fun. I had an art opening in 09 and she started a jewelry line (ironic how I was days away from finishing a website I was building for her jewelry when we broke up or took a break or whatever you call it...it kicked ass). Of course, we were totally supportive of each other.
Things I will always remember:
our photography shoots
picking out pictures and being silly
going to places like Lil Anthony's, Mimi's Cafe, California Pizza Kitchen, Millenia, Ale House, Bahama Breeze, Hooters, Chilis, Carabbas and Backstage Billiards (the focal point of our relationship for some odd reason lol)
her coming to Emily's games sometimes
the three of us doing family stuff
spending almost every weekend together for the last two years or so
spending time with her and my family
Christmas with our families, John's Pass
the cruise
our weekend in Miami
watching Yankees and Mets games together, being playful about the rivalry
going to baseball games
the art opening
even some of the meet and greets that i was never big on but saw her shine there
our Halloween fun and parties every year
the parties we went to before her accident
the things I would introduce her to
our sex and adventures
our trips to "home depot"
playing poker together
The holidays were approaching and I started to sense her depression coming on strong. We thought 2010 would be a great year. It was the end.
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